A mom's faith

Zackary Raymond is now 2 and half years old. He has come such a long way. Many physicians told us not to expect too much. If I could see their faces. I remember asking God....what did we do wrong? why us? why do we deserve this? But, I remember the day I gave it all up. That day driving down to the VEEG in September 2006...almost 2 years ago to this day I talked to God. I said that "I don't need any answers anymore. I am giving this to you and putting Zackary and our family into your hands. I need to be there for my son and give him 150%. I don't care why, I don't care if he is "special" because of course he is special...you gave him to us. I put may faith and trust in you Lord...to watch over Zackary...give me the strength to take care of him, treat him, and love him." From that day on that is what I pray for every night....along with all of the other moms, dads, babies, siblings, families of IS children. We still do not know what Zackary's outcome will be for life. I don't worry too much about that anymore (of course a little drug called Lexapro helps with that!) All I know is this: I have an AMAZING little boy. His smile lights up a room. We get to witness a miracle every single day. When he says a new word I want to cry, when he walked, I sobbed right along with Sue (his PT). It is at this point God has given me my answer...I was given Zack to bring me closer to God. For this I am truly blessed.